Not A looser

April 11. 09

here i am drowning in a deep down regret
i couldnt realizes my own promisess
God, why dont u send me
someone who could help me fix this things out
im almost give up
im not ready for other people would say about me
im not a jerk
not a loser
i still have a chance
but i dont know how to use it please tell me God

i know im not good in this stuff
but at least you give me a way out
so i can prove it to everybody i knew
that im not that stupid

show me what i meant to thiss world
am i wworth to live

my life should have a purpose, shouldnt i?
my life must be have any purposes

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its 8 April 09. 10:53 WIB

the wind blowing, duduk di beranda rumah,sepoy sepoy sejuk. terus ngantuk
aaaaaaaaargh, what am i suppose to do now...
jelas sekali kalo skripsi belum beres, tapi tetep aja ,my mind just walking around
iv been trying hardly to focus
but seemed didnt work

boring , i want to do something else

i always like to write, but wait , what do i have to write, im not the one who has much experience(life, social affiliation.....)
i didnt do much, my lifes just at home ,campus, and internet
im rarely going out from home, hanging out with my friends, go to the cinema, or just be in gigs watching consert
me , is just a cave man, i should called
im just enjoying myself sit back in a corner, reading a book, or just surfing on the internet, watching movies from my dvd player
Listening to music, and guessing its genre, is it hardcore , metalcore, or something other with "core" words
(its just example, i like lots of music, most of it is pop-rock)
so what should i write...i kinda confused now

my friends told me ,"do what you really want to do as your carrier so you can enjoy them both, job and hoby"
that was so interesting words, so motivating, but yeah , now im still stuck with my final work.
Im still workin on it

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